Closure? I Prefer Character Development.

I do not want closure, and I don’t think it would do anything for me. I like to think back on that Taylor Swift interview when she says something about not having to forget and forgive to move on, I highly agree. In some cases. This case, no closure. Instead, what is helping me right now, is hobbies, distraction, being myself, doing random things I wouldn’t normally do, like go to the beach myself. I’m doing so because I believe it happened for a reason… I’m just not so sure what that reason is yet. and that’s okay.

Break ups are terrible. awful and devastating. Its undoing plans and rebuilding them. But you learn a lot of fun things about yourself. I’ve recently been thinking of Boston, if you can’t tell by my song of the day, and it will most likely be tomorrows too. I like building a life around me. I’m going to get a little deep here so stay with me but in the life, you find yourself over and over again, —it sounds draining, don’t get me wrong, sometimes it is—sometimes it’s pure joy. This is all going to happen again but different. Might as well have fun while it last.

I think this time in my life also comes from the fact of me being rock bottom with my mental health. It was one thing on top of another. Tell me why my jaw was on the floor when I realized it had only been two days since. One thing that added some shimmer to the slow clock? Music. I’m currently going through a Pheobe Bridgers bender, and I love it here. I listen to music for hours while I color with my Color by Numbers kit (I love being single).

Remember clarity over comfort. No one knows what they are doing and that’s okay.